The frustration is mounting. I can't hold on to my good mood any longer. I'm bored out of my mind. I hate my job. The money is good, but that's not enough to make me want to stay. I like maybe two out of the 4 people that I work with. One of those two drives me nuts most of the time and the other person is awesome. The other two people I work with? Forget it. They can drive me nuts when they aren't even in the office... when they are in Colorado... I hate it. I called my mom crying today because everything thing that I could be doing I can't because one person makes everything so very difficult for others to do while she is gone. There is only so much that a person can do with this job... I need to keep busy otherwise I get angry because I'm so freaking bored. I hate it I hate it I hate it. I'm dizzy with the anger that this job fills me with. I'm starting to be cranky at home because I have shitty days after shitty days. It's not fair to Darin. It's not fair to me to have my work crap run over into my personal life. I try so hard to be happy when I'm home and not let work crap bother me so much, but I'm sitting here at my desk wanting to crumble and cry. Wanting to fall into a heap and disappear. I wish I was independently wealthy so I could do something fun all day even if it paid crap. I can wish all I want but this shit won't change. Unless i get out of this state I will be stuck in low paying crappy jobs for ever. There is nothing out here for jobs or opportunity, and shit's not cheap out here either! FUCK!
I need to unwind and go home and relax in a place where I feel comfortable.
My vote goes to you leaving early today to come home to me! I love you hunny I promise!
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