a promised picture!

So here is I think one of my favorite pictures from our honeymoon. I love this picture but it makes me sad as hell to look at it because I miss you all so very much! I wish we could afford to come visit a lot more often.

Okay, so here it is hours later that I come back to this post.... well, I've been looking at the Markree Castle in Sligo Ireland... My Dad's friend Sean is getting married there this summer.... annnnnd my parents are going to the wedding. Blah, I want to go toooooo!!! It's so beautiful!!! Someday Darin and I will get to go there for fun!

*sigh* Back to work...

Just a little something to get through the afternoon!

So Darin and I went to get creamees (soft serve ice cream for all of you non-vermonters) last week and there was a broken bench in the park by our house so we had to stop for a photo op! LOL! I thought it was perfect!! ha ha ha!! The best part was as he was sitting there the bench was breaking more and more!! It was so funny! I hope you all enjoy it as much as I did!

Don't read this, I'm just angry at my job...

The frustration is mounting. I can't hold on to my good mood any longer. I'm bored out of my mind. I hate my job. The money is good, but that's not enough to make me want to stay. I like maybe two out of the 4 people that I work with. One of those two drives me nuts most of the time and the other person is awesome. The other two people I work with? Forget it. They can drive me nuts when they aren't even in the office... when they are in Colorado... I hate it. I called my mom crying today because everything thing that I could be doing I can't because one person makes everything so very difficult for others to do while she is gone. There is only so much that a person can do with this job... I need to keep busy otherwise I get angry because I'm so freaking bored. I hate it I hate it I hate it. I'm dizzy with the anger that this job fills me with. I'm starting to be cranky at home because I have shitty days after shitty days. It's not fair to Darin. It's not fair to me to have my work crap run over into my personal life. I try so hard to be happy when I'm home and not let work crap bother me so much, but I'm sitting here at my desk wanting to crumble and cry. Wanting to fall into a heap and disappear. I wish I was independently wealthy so I could do something fun all day even if it paid crap. I can wish all I want but this shit won't change. Unless i get out of this state I will be stuck in low paying crappy jobs for ever. There is nothing out here for jobs or opportunity, and shit's not cheap out here either! FUCK!

I need to unwind and go home and relax in a place where I feel comfortable.

work sucks, I want to go home!

Well, I'm sitting here at work supposed to be doing something amazing... but I'm not. Oh well, fire me. I won't be that heartbroken... just my pocket will be. I'm feeling pretty darn lonely today as I'm the only person here in the entire office, hence the blogging. I really want to go home. Oh and I'd like to thank Facebook for reminding me that all my friends are in California, yeah, thanks a bunch. I have a few friends out here but nothing like you guys in California. I have a lot of stuff going on right now and I'd love to talk to you about it all buuuut, the Internet just isn't the right place for it. I called my friend (supposed to be "best") last night because I needed to talk to someone since Darin was at work and she blew me off. Not very nicely either. I understand that she has a lot going on right now in her life too, but I can't always listen. I have the same needs too. Friendships are supposed to be two ways. Oh well. (I'm not really over it, but I'm sure you don't want me to keep going) So our friend Josh ended up coming over last night to have dinner with me, and I've been super moody the past few days and every time I'd start letting my feelings out he'd change the subject... so I stopped trying. No point anyway. These next few weeks will be pretty stressful for me personally because a lot of stuff with straighten itself out one way or another.
Oh I wish it was 4, then I could leave and go home. well, 4 more hours! yay. I hope my mood picks up soon because I hate being grouchy when I'm with Darin, I feel super bad about it.
Love to whoever reads this!

California Loving

Soooo since Darin and I have come back from California we have started talking about when we will move back... it's really only a matter of time. Now if only money wasn't a problem... we would be there now! We have things that we need to do before we were to move again, get out of debt being one thing. Save up money for another thing... Look for jobs out there... housing.. you know. Find a place that we can afford to live in. It's all easier said than done. Plus if we were to move within a year we wouldn't be able to start a family right away and that is something that we really want to do. Ah well, I will keep you all updated!

It was absolutely wonderful to see everyone again! I really miss you guys and I wish we all lived closer together (hence us moving back). I will be hopefully putting a few of my favorite pictures up here soon and all pictures up on flickr soon!